Tomorrow I'll experience a bilateral TKR - total knee replacement, both knees. So I'm T minus 1 day . . . and counting. It's been a journey to get here. Since the end of July when I got the bone-on-bone diagnosis, I've been doing stretches every morning and working out with weights two or three days … Continue reading T minus 1 day
I'm in a perfect storm of overwhelm. My double knee replacement is nine days away. This day, the Tuesday after Labor Day, is the sixth anniversary of my breast cancer diagnosis. And I cracked my phone screen this afternoon. It's September, isn't it? The challenging month in my life! I feel so behind in getting … Continue reading September is the cruelest month
I'll give the quick update first. If you read my post last week, you know I was seeing an orthopedist about my knees, anticipating that he'd say I need replacement of both knees. And that's what happened. I'm scheduled for double knee replacement - that's right, both at the same time - in the middle … Continue reading Knee Replacement: How was I so unaware?
I've been feeling that I'm caught in some kind of limbo, the one of "limbo" definition c. from Dictionary.com: an intermediate, transitional, or midway state or place. This current here of my now feels like a transitional place, affected partly by my trip to an orthopedist a couple of weeks ago. I thought I was a candidate … Continue reading My time in this limbo
"How in the world can Facebook be any part of mindfulness?!!" you might ask. Although Facebook is often criticized as a waste of time, I find it can be helpful beyond keeping me current with friends' lives. You see, I have thoughts and emotions about what I see posted. And I try mindfully to watch those … Continue reading Using Facebook as part of a mindfulness practice
If you want the short version of this post, here it is: My hysterectomy on March 7th went well. My doctor found fibroids which looked benign. The pathology verified that they were benign, as was the endometriosis. Here is the longer version . . . My sister came down a couple of days before my … Continue reading Surgery & Gratitude
Next Tuesday I'm set for surgery. A complete hysterectomy. And what I'm feeling is paradoxical. I feel both fear and trust. Both swirl in my thoughts and feelings. How to be present to that? I know that being present is essential. The last big surgery I had was a little over five years ago, a … Continue reading Surgery: Fear and Trust